why do this?

Studying! Finally! :) I'm going to do economics today.

It is so hard for me to study the mundane things that I have to apply in school when there is so much MORE applicable and powerful knowledge to be learnt, and concepts with so much more weight to think about. I really do appreciate all that I've learnt about demand, supply, elasticity concepts, market failure, government intervention and especially free trade (I think that everybody should be taught to understand how free trade works), but I really don't see why I have to learn and memorize all the nitty-gritty details that everybody's going to forget a month after the examinations. We've learnt what is important, and we can always re-learn the details at any time if we ever actually need to apply the concepts ourselves.

My mind is screaming with a hunger to devour books and more books about concepts and thoughts about philosophy, culture, political science. I'd like to learn some of the finer points of physics and biology that I am unclear about. When I was a kid I was obsessed with geography, about volcanoes and earthquakes and stuff like that. Now I'm fascinated by ideas of cultural psyche, tipping points, personality types, psychology, philosophy and with generally understanding how and why things are the way they are and people act the way they do under various circumstances- at a larger, deeper and more holistic level than the assumption-riddled concepts of simple economics as defined by the A level syllabus. I enjoy Literature substantially and wish I had taken it at a H2 level. While I don't see the direct relevance of A level Mathematics to my life at the moment, I do accept that I have to prove to the world that I am capable of vanquishing it before I am allowed to disregard it.

That really pretty much sums up my attitude towards my A Levels altogether. It's turning out to be nothing more than means to an end. I must continue the fight in spite of the shoddy reasoning. What can I do? It's really a small price to pay for all that I have stood to benefit from in the past and stand to benefit from in the future.