Anyway, I really haven't gotten any work done in the past 4 or 5 days. It's ridiculous. When I started this blog, I was thinking that I was going to be documenting how much I'm doing every single day for 80 consecutive days. What remains here is a testament to the weakness of my will and my absolute lack of discipline- yesterday I watched two movies at a friend's place (Let The Right One In is an absolutely awesome show that cannot be easily described) and ended up going to bed at 7am- and waking up at 4pm.
So today was productive, right? No. I went to Starbucks to study, but I ran into a group of friends who convinced me to play 2 hours of LAN- which we did. We played DotA and Left 4 Dead, both games which I haven't touched in months. We then ate dinner at McDonald's and went back to study... nope. We went to watch Liverpool beat Man Utd at a nearby coffeeshop. All I did today was about 3 or 4 questions on Vectors.
Above all that, I am starting to get edgy when I think about my other major commitment- Armchair Critic's EP Launch. For those of you who don't already know, I play in a band called Armchair Critic and we're about to release our debut EP (which is like a mini-album). We figured that we'd have to release it after our A Levels because me and my guitarist will be serving NS soon after and we'd probably lose a lot of our drive and steam if we had to wait until much later to get it done.
The problem? The EP still isn't completed. I am now concurrently trying to save my Maths from Absolute Fail AND trying to complete a mini-album that still needs quite a bit of work... and I'm not sure that I could accomplish one or the other in this given span of time, let alone both simultaneously.
I need to perform a miracle.
The realistic side of me tells me that I'm going to release an average EP that won't be that great, and that my A Level results will be alright but nothing to brag about. That bums me out. I don't want to be average. That's not how I live my life.
Before I pursue that thought further, I think it's best that I focus on getting some stuff done before I start to think about it.
Running this blog is a very strange experience because I am conscious that I am wasting my time, and my instinct tells me to stop blogging or stop thinking and all that because I should be getting work done instead. Then and again, if I used my time effectively, I should be able to do everything I want to and more. Forgive me if I'm being a little random and unrefined in my phrasing but I'm just throwing things out as they run through my mind.
I'm in a bit of a mess right now- I don't mean emotionally or psychologically or in a negative way, but I need to get to work... and I've been saying this how many times already?!
I know that in time, I will be able to go over this and sort things out- because I always can.
So I can do it later. See? That's me managing my time effectively. It can be done. Now to
translate it to the rest of my daily routine.
C'mon, Visa.
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