O_O TIME IS RUNNING OUT

Did I say I was calm?!

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Well, to be honest I still am rather calm, but I'm starting to get that sense of foreboding doom again. It seems to be directly related to the amount of effort I've been putting in- I feel more of it when I haven't been getting much done.

I'm going to quickly do a SEA history essay outline and meet my tutor for a consult! Byebye

25 days left

I should be getting more frightened and pressured, but interestingly, I'm not. In fact I'm starting to feel more calm than I have in quite some time. I'm looking forward to catching Mr. Big when they come to town this weekend. I'm heading to town to buy clothes for Deepavali. Gotten started on my Maths!

seething.

I have to do well for my A-Levels, more than ever, to prove a point to all the people who don't believe that I can do it.

hey guys!

I haven't been blogging here for a while; and I am so, so touched to see that there are quite a few of you who actually are regular visitors who pop by every other day or so to see if I've updated. The thought of that alone is enough to get me back here to post again. If you guys would make yourself more visible by commenting or leaving tags, I would feel a lot more pressure to post more regularly! (hint hint)

The countdown meter at the left says it all; as I write this there are only 30 odd days left to what my society has heralded as the most important examinations of my life so far; something pivotal that would either catapult me to University, or leave me jaded and helpless about my future while serving my NS stint. (That's absolute tripe, of course. You can burn all my certificates and qualifications, and I will honestly relish the challenge.)

So what am I up to right now? I didn't study today, unfortunately. I really feel like singing right now (at 1:03am; have you ever felt that way?) so I'm going to pick up my guitar and sing.

Life is beautiful!

interesting moment

So today I skipped maths lecture to eat a sandwich and read a book in the canteen. One of the teachers who I'm quite familiar with approached me and asked me why I wasn't in lecture. I said "Aiyah, never mind lah!" She half-smiled as she shooed me off to the lecture anyway, saying something about how it was the right thing to do.

It was an interesting moment. She's one of the nice teachers who obviously cares about the average student's well-being and academic performance. I wonder what really went through her mind? I don't think I come across as a trouble-maker or a problem-student. If anything, I imagine it would have been something along the lines of "I hope this joker is studying hard."

I would hate to disappoint her. She's a nice lady. History and Maths today!

rarh

i know i haven't been posting in a while;

things are difficult

please bear with me

panic attack

october already omg omg omg omg omg

omg

i shall commemorate the occasion by sorting out all my stuff by subject... and hopefully by topic